tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3582939524404148877.post7231753702469398477..comments2023-09-20T03:08:39.649-05:00Comments on [Insomnia and Cigarettes]: getting darkerStephanie Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14012715893629700211noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3582939524404148877.post-13307046206710630982009-11-09T04:39:59.018-06:002009-11-09T04:39:59.018-06:00i think i become brave and careless in dreams. i n...i think i become brave and careless in dreams. i never really fight them when they whoosh in, even though i know its happening i feign ignorance and roll with it. this could be bad. <br />but it feels amazing.<br /><br />as for love. love is something i will never have a handle on. i think i use the word love in place of things that feel good and warm but really are just those feelings. maybe i haven't defined love deeply enough to use the word. i should stop. ha. its not that i chase it away with sticks, its just that im sure its hiding and trembles when it hears my voice. it wont come out. and im not sure i really care if it does. eh. <br /><br />im sleep deprived.Stephanie Leehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14012715893629700211noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3582939524404148877.post-81761418258285653732009-11-08T06:08:20.909-06:002009-11-08T06:08:20.909-06:00On my secret "serious" blog, a long time...On my secret "serious" blog, a long time ago, I posted something about dreams. I hate them. Fake. And yet a real source of fear and stress. <br />The Dream Weaver (host of a local AM radio show that analyses dreams) would disagree. She says the dreams are the answers or the questions or both. <br /><br />Recently, on the same blog, I wrote about the love thing. (Your previous post). As long as it remains the question (the old "make the search your god and you will find God" thing) you're safe. You don't ever want to think you've arrived. Ever. <br /><br />If love is not around the bend, it isn't in the car with you.s.k.namannyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03421786160958149254noreply@blogger.com