22.6.08

i need

-to calm down
-to move. soon. gotta get the hell out of this city. SOON.
-to stop pacing.
-to stop chaining.
-someone to have my back in this.
-a breath, a pause, a moment of so this is what it feels like to figure out the everything.
-to stay away from the computer.
-paint. NOW.
-brushes. YESTERDAY.
-canvas. [please]
-cheaper outlets.
-you to stop staring at me and start scooping water out of this sinking ship.
-to stop reading about other people and feeling jealous. they're just other people.
-to realize that the face in the mirror is me and not a stranger.
-cigarettes. i just ran out. FUCK.

4 comments:

Jon Bravo said...

so dark.

.när'sĭ-sĭz'əm. said...

constant dreams of death and destruction.

and you can only guess my current mood. . .


[psshhh]

The County said...

the blue bear confession bee el oh gee has been removed....what gives?

.när'sĭ-sĭz'əm. said...

WHAAAT?!

sadness.