yikes, sometimes things just spin on a tiny angle.
what am i talking about, thats all the time with me. im always spinning it seems. somehow ive tricked myself into thinking the sickness is gone but maybe its just sleeping. ugh i have heartburn and a raging jealousy for something that doesnt even breathe and could never surpass. im angry. and now i have a drivers license. great. of course i want to flee and find solace. why does everyone else get to do whatever the fuck they want and i have to stay in a little white box. clean and silent. shhh. rage. yes, its there and steady. warm and familiar. the usual way i say hello to it. calmly and with strong eye contact.
the people around me never knew me then. i was anonymous for the most part, then i rolled up my sleeves and i became curious, interesting, pathetic. to different types, in different shades. what the fuck am i doing? why am i back here?
i dont even know. im off to find the time for a smoke and settle the fuck down.
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Don't settle: the fuck down nor any iteration of it. I don't know why you are in Nebraska and I can't ask anyone 'cause they don't know you like I don't know you
"No one in the world ever gets what they want, and that is beautiful. Everybody dies frustrated and sad and that is beautiful." (they might be giants.)
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