breathing change and seeing the bright lights. its going to be the very end of me before anything stays but at least it will happen.
i feel pretty good and jittery. mostly the coffee to blame but also the anxiety i have in my stomach right now.
tonight im going to watch my first real basketball game. im kind of excited. hah.
[the past is gone but something might be found to take its place]
there are things that i usually think about everyday. they ususally kick me hard in the teeth but today i cant even foggily remember what they were.
i just cant blog lately tho. this troubles me.
ive been hidden away by the curtains and my nervous system.
im sure itll all come back.
be patient she says.
[the first good thing ive heard from her in a long time.]
once more. dont try to understand. just read it, close it, and forget about it.